This is the time..

I've been naive for the past 9 months. Acceptance, apologies come and go! It was hurt for every of these but yes I've learn the lesson. But I wasn't sure have I grown up.

This is a real life experience which every human being have to go through and I've been through. I've tasted the sweetness, bitterness, sourness feeling from the Day 1.

I always thought I could change something/ someone to a better one, to the one of my dream but I was wrong. Commitment, Compromise are all rubbish. It doesn't exist at all. Every "yes" answered was just bullshit! Now I should really believe in these 2 terms.."Action speaks louder than words" & "A leopard never change its spot". This is very truee. Human out there, do remember sometimes sacrifices would not bring you any good but harm. Harm towards the heart (emotional), the mental and physical as well.

I think this is really the time to let go. This is when compromise & trust turns to lie. When lies exist, there's no more truth, no more trust and no more confidence & compromise in this . I really do not know how to continue when trust and confidence are no longer exist.

May the decision made would be the best for all. I do pray hard that I could let it go slowly without pain....and sorrow...

EarthQuake

Anyone feel it? I feel it yesterday at my office in Jaya 1 at the time of 6.23pm. I can feel the tremor for 3 times. It was a funny scene when I come to think of it. WHy?

Normally we off work at 6pm, so yesterday I was late to work, so I stayed longer in the office to compensate back the time. When I was busying facebook-ing, Suddenly I feel very dizzy. So I thought I was so tired till I can feel Dizzy out of sudden. After another few seconds, It's getting worst. This time, no serious, I can see my table is shaking and I asked my colleague "Hey do you guys feel the building is shaking?" they answered me "No, nothing"and they get back gossiping and laughing at a corner.

I was like Ok and get back to MSN and facebooking. Then one of my friend message me saying that her office building in KL is shaking! This time, I told my colleagues again
"Hey my friend also said her office is shaking, don't you guys feel it?" Then all of them remain silent and feel the environment. Oops...one of the colleagues shouted
"Hey, it's really shaking, earthhquake!! we must not stay in the office anymore, run for life!!"

And everyone is panic and run out from our office. For me, I shut off my laptop and run for life as well. It's funny. There are some take lift and there are some who take stairs down the building. For me, I know it's not appropriate to take Lift but I'm lazy to walk down the stairs to my parking lot at B3 from my 5th floor office. So I juz take lift down.

The funniest part is...there's some working adult in the lift as well, once we get into the lift, he started to ask..."do you guys feel the earthquake just now?" and we all answered Him "YES!!" and he laughed. He said he feel it and closed his office straight!

Then once I reached the car park, I can see everyone is driving very fast out from the building and some even run to thier car to drive the car out. They makes me feel panic and I run like them to get my car. Hahaha...

THis earthquake is really an unforgettable experience for me as this is the second time I encountered it. The first time wasn't as scary as compares to this.
HAHaa..

SEAFood feast @ Restaurant Kwai Lam, along Subang Airport

LAst Saturday, I went to have a very sumptuous seafood birthday dinner. A seafood dinner at somewhere around old Subang Airport. It's actually located at Kampung Melayu. The journey there was short, not even taking me more than 10mins drive from my current stay at Ara Damansara.

The restaurant named Restaurant Kwai LUm Seafood. WEll, basically serving normal 'tai chao' and variety of seafood. What we have ordered? We'd ordered 2 types of noodle (sin chao mai and kung fu yee min chao), 1 plate of kam heong bamboo lala, 1 plate of fried chicken wings, 1 plate of Spinach Vege, 2 plates of crabs; fried with salted egg and another kam heong crab, 1 piece of fish with alot of ginger (alive - fresh water fish, 1 plate of lai liew har and 5 big bottles of Tiger Beer. So all together 9 dishes to be shared among 7 of us.

Overall, the bill came up to around RM 291. It's pretty cheap as the portion of the food are very big.

If got chance, guys kindly go and have a try. Food is good. Service is good as well.

Yeah!!


p/s: No pictures to be shown as we are all too hungry and busy eating, forgotten to snap some pics down to share. Will do it next time if I go again....

Raya Holiday....uuuhhhuhhh

Yooo...Raya is just around the corner. Well, I'm going back to my hometown-Muar.. Can't wait for it. WHY?

hahah...As u know raya, there are great food around, and yes...Going back to have a feast...I miss Nasi Briyani, Ayam Masak Merah, Rendang and etc..keke~ Well normally for me, Raya will alwiz be the day where i EAT alot..kekeke...M sure I will gain weight for this..but its okay as it's once or twice a year!

Well, still can't decide how am I going back to Muar. Waiting for my fren/ cousin's feedback. They will only inform me whether they are going back or not. huhu....If not I think I gotta drive back ALONE again this time.
It will be very tired and lonely. If it is jammed, then it would be worst! I'm scared!
Pray hard that either of them going back so I can just tumpang along!

Well, its not cheap to travel back alone. Tol has already cost me around RM 20.10 for 1 way, petrol around 1 full tank of RM 75 (back n forth). So alone it cost me more than RM 115.20. IT's very costly. If I go back with my siblings, its still worth while! aiks......ALONE..ALONE..

Erm...Im hoping I can enjoy myself this Raya..WIsh to meet up with frenz and gossip more...keke!

050909

This will be the most unforgettable day for me!! This will always be remembered!

Some of the human need to go through their first ever time and yes, I've went through this at the age of 26. For some, it is indeed a good news and vice versa. For me..its both good and bad news. I was having a mix feeling and I was kinda lost when I can't even decide properly before that. Think practically I shouldn't but logically I have to. So this is really FATE. Human lives in logically and realistically. WHat I can say now was Sorry. I know tons of millions apologies would not even be accepted. I can't be blaming anyONe on this but myself. BUT I DO regret for What I have done. IF everything could goes to the way as I want it to be, how great it would be at the moment.


I've learn from my mistake and I do promised you that I would not do such thing ever again in my LIFE. I've been through the pain, the sorrow, the guiltiness and also the feeling of being stab through my HEART.

I hope you can understand and may you have a better life ahead!!! You will always be remembered!!!

Everything is FINAL!

Finally I've made my decision. I wasn't sure is it the best for me...but yes for the moment.. I can't predict my future but I can rest assured that..this thing has been bothering me for some time. I need to analyse and think for it for such a long time.

Well, I do not deny that I've learnt alot from this. Now there's another things that bother me. Everything will be resolved hopefully by tomorrow. Hope it is a good news to me anyway

Now I have a relieve but sad feeling. A mixture of feeling. It's like missing/ losing my favorite pet (pepper) which I consider important all these while and now losing it somehow feel sad and I'm sure tears will be seeing very often from every now and then. I hope to stop all these in within 1 week, as short as possible which I have a doubt to it too. I'd used up more than few weeks to settle down my losing pepper's feeling. I can still remember I can cried almost every nite for him! Now think of this, I miss him again.. i wish I could hug him tightly NOW....S**T!

Well, no matter what decision I've made, I'm seriously hoping we will have a better future, better ways of living in this world. I hope all the goods thing will keep by us side by side. We must strive harder! HARDER!! I pray to GOD that i wish the people surrounding me are getting best wishes and luck no matter where we go..

down...

It's been very down of me since the past week. I wonder why. I was sick for almost 1 week and not really fully recover yet. WEnt to visit doctor twice and during the second visit, I was given a very high dosage of antibiotic which is 650mg. I've never taken such high dosage antibiotic at all. My first attempt and yes it can really caused drowsiness. enDED up my Merdeka holiday was a totALly rest day for me as I've been sleeping all day long during day and nite! Well, I'm still feeling lethargic and restless.

Nowadays I don't seem to have the motivation in all kinds. No motivation at work, at love and at myself. It seem like someting is bothering me but I do not know what is that. And I just couldn't think properly. I hate THINKING and making decision. What I wish to have is just a REST..REST..REST

Yesterday did not sleep well altho I'm super tired. MY mind don't seem to be resting although my eyes are closed. AIks..TOday don't seem like working as what I had in my mind was SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP!!!

I do also have sudden feel of skipping work in which I do not do so. I just don't feel like coming to work..HHAahaha...i always thght i love this company, but I seem to be thiking the other way round at the moment. Wonder why. I just don't have the feeling or the urge to approach them...I alwiz think I better stay quiet and do my stuff so that the rest of my time I can go back and sleep...

what a negative thought I have all out of sudden! what kind of impact I will have if i were to continue to be in this way!!