Saturday, October 2, 2010

Crossroads

Life is about making decision all the time. From the day u was born till the day u are dead. Making decision seems not hard, either 50-50 but every decision that made change one’s life.

I’ve made alot alot of decisions till today and I’m not sure whether all those decision that I've made right or wrong. Again this has alwiz been on my mind since July. Contemplating again and again when I alwiz think of freedom. yes, freedom is the thing that im looking at, however freedom cant buy me full when i needs food, freedom cant let me settle or clear my monthly commitment.

Still jotting down the advantages and disadvantage when a big decision making is a need and necessary. Know which stands the most but with my stubborn personality, contemplating, complaint will never stops.

That’s about me. Feel envious when seeing friends surrounding me are getting successful, seeing them enjoying their life to the MAX while me here….still the same. When can I be as successful, as rich, as freedom, as happy as them?

I’ve too much of dreams to fulfil and too little of fund or time to achieve those that i’ve dreamt for. aiks….still sighing all the way. Never seem to be ending in my life.

Better not to make too much of complaints else i guess there are many close ones out there nagging and scolding me non stop….hahaha…guess they know who they are…

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Monday, February 1, 2010

Sharing a depressed side of me~

Luck...
My luck isn't really favoring me these days..Or maybe I can said its not favoring me at all once I came down to KL. It ain't smooth at all esp in my Wealth and my Career Luck.

I'm kinda unhappy whenever I feel lost and demotivated. Every factor in my life affected my daily living. I discovered that my life ain't perfect as what I always thought or dream of. I'm deeply depressed and sad!

WHy is there to blame about when I myself being too naive at ALL the times. Wondering hard, where am I suppose to be, what do I suppose to encounter. I really have alot of bad experiences in KL. None of my living seem to be smooth. Too many obstacles and discouragement for me.

I've been tired of all the trials and errors. I'm also a normal human that will feel tired. But why am I having such troublesome. Is it all punishment I suppose to have in my life? Is this another test from God once again without stopping? I've had enough.

I seriously hope I could find a better life in the Year of Tiger. I'm awaiting for good and lucky angel to stay by my side all these while. I pray hard for the lucky charm that I will meet soon~

Need alot of encouragement from my family, friends, and everyone that is close to me. I need everyone's strength to let me stay strong and fight for my own future.